Thursday, December 25, 2008

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Find out who I am

Dear myself,

If you think carefully, spending time with yourself and so many PhD's articles in the world is a great way to find (or confuse) yourself: find out what you can do, what you would like to do, what you are good at doing, where you are heading to ..

You thought it was getting close to the end of the program. When you study the map and look around, you realize it is even farther than you expect. You thought you knew who you are, in fact, you don't. The more you spend time with yourself, the more you see the concept of self being vague.

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I spent almost the whole morning categorizing the articles I collected. I was proud of myself that I found so many great articles. At the same time, I could see how small I am when reading these great research findings written in perfect English. I just started to wonder ... never doubt .. just wonder ... my way in and out...

Friday, November 21, 2008

The love for three oranges

在美國同學的強力推薦之下 我們去看了給三個橘子的愛
是一個比較現代的歌劇 ~

真的是"現代" 就跟當代藝術有點異曲同工之妙 :)
但是其實是1919年一個從俄國移民到美國的作曲家 Sergei Prokofiev 寫的喔!

這個故事裡很特別的是有五群人 "Prokofiev greatly expanded the Greek chorus-like role of five groups of onlookers: the Tragicals (basses, Comicals (tenors), Romantics (sopranos, tendors), Eccentrics of "Cranks" (male chorus), and Air Heads (altos and basses)" 在其中跟觀眾還有故事裡的主角互動 最有深意的是那些人在鼓動 在迎合 在喧囂 在面對不同人有不同回應的時候 對照到現實裡 政治社會新聞...

我覺得切開橘子那段最有趣又最諷刺 王子和小丑好不容易偷來他心愛的三個橘子 沙漠裡小丑很渴 忘了魔法師說見到橘子的時候要記得準備一些水 於是他趁王子睡著了 拿刀子切開一個大橘子 想要吃個橘子解渴 但是橘子裡面卻坐著一位公主 她很美麗 她請求小丑給她一些水 小丑自己也很渴不知道該怎麼辦好 滿心期待切開第二顆多汁的橘子 可以救他自己與公主 第二個橘子裡 也坐著另一個公主... 公主請他給一點水.. 後來兩個公主很快因為缺水而死了 小丑畏罪潛逃...


















等到王子醒來 他發現兩個心愛的橘子裡有兩個美麗卻死去的女子 馬上下令士兵把她們拖走 清理乾淨 於是舞台剩下他與他心愛的唯一的橘子 (畫面多麼美麗 在下令清走那些礙王子眼的橘子皮還有小丑的爛攤子之後 卻完全不去思考為什麼橘子裡死了兩個美麗的公主)打開來發現裡面有一位美麗的公主 於是他也發現公主需要水 在王子的呼叫下 馬上有一群工人現身忙碌的拉著水管...

現在回頭想想政府 或是一些organizations 的領導,行為,政策決定 很有趣吧

我很喜歡國王走路的樣子! 像撲克牌老K的國王真的很可愛
Music (midi) - http://people.nnu.edu/wdhughes/ProkofievMarch.MID

訪問導演與製作人
http://music.indiana.edu/iumusiclive/streaming/?media/Oranges-Intermission-h264.m4v

1980s 台北交通很亂阿...

今天去看opera的時候 怡君旁邊坐了一位老先生
開始前我們在聊天 他說他去過台北 :)
住在一個很棒的hotel 有很漂亮的view 很大的陽台 看出去有高高的塔
我以為他說信義區的凱悅 問他說外面是不是台北101阿
他說當時大約是1980 ...

我們問他hotel是不是紅色的阿 他說對對對在一個小山丘上
(圓山飯店嘛 最近很紅... 幾個員警為了阻攔女議員在陽台熟練的跨攔動作也很紅)
他笑著說台北路很小 交通不好 很多摩托車喔!
我說 阿 對對對 我爸就是其中之一!

呵呵 沒想到我出生的時候交通就不好了喔?

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

我是不是一棵草莓

高中的時候 我是園藝社的一員 忘記是當社團裡的什麼 但是印象很深刻的是頭髮灰白的社團老師 給我們一株株小小的草莓 在寒冷的冬天過後 不起眼的盆子裡長了一個紅通通的草莓 我小心翼翼呵護 卻漸漸遺忘那一顆記憶裡草莓後來到底怎麼了

過了不久 等到我大學了 開始有人說七十幾年次的是草莓族 不抗壓又不認真 草莓族是一個不好的詞 到美國唸書以後 有時候我也覺得 從前以為堅強的自己 也因為壓力哭了好幾次 我不是七字頭 但是我是不是草莓? 而今天台灣的草莓台灣的野草莓 卻讓我又一次感動地 不知道該不該以草莓為傲 不知道草莓的明天該往哪裡去...


Google Lively

I just played with Google Lively (wikipedia) for a while - a bout 1 or 2 hours. I found it easier to install and walk around in the space than Second Life. It was also interesting to see how a program slows down my Windows again. Not crush. Only slow down.

This Internet world is a bit weird because wasting your time there is so encouraged!

Google Lively so far only works in windows not on macs. http://www.lively.com/catalog/

Don't know how to use in learning before I can overcome the hardware difficulties.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

talking to miffy

Talking to Miffy is one of the most interesting things in the world. I spoke to her on the phone last week. She was so quiet.. She is not a kitty anymore I guess.

She understands how to be a good listener! and interpret it on her own. What a talented cat!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Humidifier - Elephant

今天去買了一隻象 :) 因為天氣越來越冷了
開暖氣家裡變得很乾燥 眼睛也痛痛的 ...



剛剛上完課之後 聽我同學說Humidifier 要加鹽巴
這樣硬水才會蒸發出來 不然她還以為她的壞了
不知道有沒有科學根據 說明書怎麼都沒寫 ... :-)

Monday, October 06, 2008

很多事情...

我覺得這學期壓力很大
事情很多 有些是我自己很想趕快完成的事
有些是別人要求我做的事情
還有更多是介在中間的
全部重疊在一起

我的一天依舊是24個小時
跟每個人依樣也要吃飯睡覺看電視 : )
又回到Quality要多好的問題了....

從前總是覺得 your work is like looking into a mirror of yourself
努力地和現實拉扯 不輕易放棄實現自己的機會
而我到底如何如何活出自己 更開心滿意

也許是該放開手上緊握的一些繩子
以為擁有回首也許是束縛
I thought I had to figure it out by myself..
Maybe the review committee has known..

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Yoga 瑜珈

今天是第一次去做 Yoga :)
Vicky 毫不猶豫的拿著道具 , 墊子 磚頭 跟 繩子, 東東東就跑到教室的最前面
我卻覺得很害羞 一個原因是很久沒有來SRSC 尤其是Group Exercise
另一個原因是跟一群似曾相識的Undergraduates混在一個空間裡
不知道有沒有我的學生 或是教過又忘記的人
尤其我從來沒有Yoga過 可能表現得很拙 整個有點期待又擔心

所以我就把我的墊子稍微拉到邊邊 沒想到馬上被v發現很快就拉回來 “靠近一點啦“
結果呢 其實還好 我都可以做那些動作 只是一開始很痠而已 呵呵

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

春夏秋冬 - 中醫篇

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:10:11 PM)
秋天來了....小心肺的問題唷

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:10:20 PM)
:D好

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:10:27 PM)
那冬天呢

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:10:44 PM)
冬天是腎

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:10:52 PM)
是喔

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:10:56 PM)
水分的補充要注意

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:10:54 PM)
夏天ㄋ

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:11:00 PM)
夏天是心

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:11:06 PM)
春天是肝

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:11:10 PM)
呵呵

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:11:54 PM)
難怪台灣人肝的問題比較多 (四季如春..)

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:11:16 PM)
那皮膚呢

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:11:56 PM)
皮膚的狀況...基本上受到這些五臟六腑的影響

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:12:16 PM)
要看你的皮膚是發生了什麼問題

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:12:33 PM)
呵呵 目前沒有什麼問題 臉皮厚了點

chun-yi/ simplify/ says: (11:12:42 PM)
算問題嗎

阿怪與阿龍:純粹的芬芳。靜心的翅膀... says: (11:13:25 PM)
臉皮厚....你在開玩笑吧.....

Sunday, September 21, 2008

sentences i found interesting

Birthdays are good for you; the more you have, the longer you live.

Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.

We could learn a lot from crayons: Some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors . . . but they all have to learn to live in the same box.

Everything should be made as simple as possible, but no simpler.

A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

Happiness comes through doors you didn't know you left open.

Just because something is easy to measure doesn't mean it's important.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

teeth

最近看到我室友牙齒痛 覺得她好可憐喔 有幾個想法:

1. 大家一定要好好愛護牙齒 吃完酸的或甜的東西要趕快刷牙或漱口
2. health insurance 的錢不能省 健康還是最重要
3. 真想念台灣健保還有台灣的牙醫 尤其是我的牙醫
4. 我應該要趕快吃完巧克力去刷牙然後趕快來唸書了

p.s. 我最近真是狂吃耶 可是還是路上遇到人會說我變瘦了 @_@ 我覺得這是一種詭計 因為我明明沒有呀 ~

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

thoughts after the AI orientation

I attended the AI orientation this spring. Went there for helping Dr. Brush's discussion session today. Had feelings that wow- i can share my experience and i am prepared for those issues. that was amazing.

i finally passed those difficult times in teaching in US. And I am actually looking forward to having fun in teaching and learning with my students.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

georgia 後續..

喬治亞戰事失利 宣傳成功

喬治亞總統薩哈希維利貿然出兵南奧塞梯亞,引來俄軍鐵蹄蹂躪,可謂自取其辱,然而他也巧妙的利用媒體造勢,把這場軍事災難轉化成個人在宣傳上的大勝利。

在喬治亞出兵之前,西方國家很少人知道這個位於高加索地區的小國。但是戰事爆發後,薩哈希維利頻頻在西方,尤其是美國的電子媒體上曝光,這些媒體還不斷播出薩哈希維利怒控俄軍入侵喬治亞的鏡頭。

無論在哪個電子頻道,薩哈希維利傳達的訊息都一樣:喬治亞是個非常現代化的正常國家,百姓和美國人一樣,都很友善風趣,如今卻慘遭鄰國俄羅斯軍隊的荼毒與屠殺。

在美國受教育的薩哈希維利是操弄媒體的高手,他英語流利,能言善道,對電子媒體的邀訪,來者不拒。他八月十二日在首都提弗利司向十五萬喬治亞民眾發表慷慨 激昂的演說,痛陳民主小國正面臨蠻橫惡鄰的欺凌與威脅,加上巨幅國旗在廣場上飛舞,曲調愈來愈高昂的愛國歌曲,令人不由憶起廿年前席捲烏克蘭、波蘭,協助 這些國家脫離蘇聯掌控的和平民主革命浪潮「蘇東波」。

相形之下,莫斯科當局近年來極力箝制媒體的作法,效果充分浮現。俄羅斯出兵南奧後,一方面指示國內媒體大播軍方陸空聯攻,戰車及部隊大舉壓境的畫面,以宣 揚國威,另方面則禁止西方媒體進入南奧首府茨欣瓦利,其他交戰地區也嚴格管制,以致明明是喬治亞先出兵南奧,電視畫面上出現的卻盡是俄軍在喬國境內橫行的 鏡頭,反而成為薩哈希維利指控的最佳見證。

其實,薩哈希維利本身也有戕害新聞自由的紀錄。去年,他命特勤人員強闖兩家言論對政府不友善的電視台搜索,並迫其停播。不過,他現在強打的「民主弱小橫遭 惡鄰欺凌」主題,成功勾起人們對俄羅斯近年箝制媒體的記憶,也很對西方媒體胃口,雖然軍事戰場上一敗塗地,宣傳戰卻戰果豐碩。

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

starbucks

even though starbucks closed many coffee shops around the world, the one i am sitting in has a very good business. it's crowded but i feel peaceful. very interesting. a place where people meet and discuss ideas. i guess i can feel ideas jumping around in my mind too.

bless taiwan.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

我真是太欣賞他了


喬治亞大動作 宣布脫離獨立國協
更新日期:2008/08/12 22:28 吳宗達

俄羅斯和喬治亞的軍事衝突,晚間有最新發展!雖然俄羅斯宣布暫時停火,喬治亞總統薩卡希維利,今天晚間卻有大動作,他號召15萬喬治亞民眾,公開發表演說,除了要求俄羅斯立刻撤軍,同時宣布,喬治亞將脫離以俄羅斯為首的獨立國協。

超過15萬喬治亞民眾,將首都街道擠的水洩不通,總統薩卡希維利情緒高亢的向民眾演說,痛斥俄羅斯派軍血腥殘殺喬治亞人民,他指控俄羅斯進行種族屠殺,並且宣布喬治亞將脫離以俄羅斯為首的獨立國協。

目前法國總統正在喬治亞,協調雙方停戰,以及希望雙方都撤軍,恢復到開戰前兵力部屬情況,試圖化解衝突。

http://tw.news.yahoo.com/article/url/d/a/080812/8/13iu.html

Thursday, July 31, 2008

depressed

i was kind of depressed again.
don't know why..
maybe just pressure..

令人心碎的 桂冠湯圓

記得剛來美國的時候
最喜歡吃的就是桂冠芝麻湯圓還有義美小泡芙
都是我從小吃到大最愛的食物 “之一"

不過... 這兩次 (今年)買桂冠芝麻湯圓都是
怎麼煮都是破的硬的 超難吃的
第一次我以為是我沒煮好
第二次也是這樣 仔細一看都是破的 ...

想說好吧 再去買一盒
這次回美國想到要來吃湯圓
滿心期待 香甜軟Q的桂冠湯圓
咬一口緩緩流出黑色的芝麻~~

結果.... 這次
還是ㄧ樣又破又硬 我不知道怎麼形容
二十幾年來從沒看過這種破的碎碎的硬湯圓
馬上吐出來...
我只能說有點像是 沾到泥沙的髒石頭

原本我們懷疑這是中國盜版黑心貨
結果晴天霹靂...
仔細看袋子上寫說 made in china.... X| ~~~~
全部都進垃圾桶了...

這是湯圓嗎?????

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Best parents ever

There was one thing that I learned from chatting with my mom this morning.

They love and have loved me so much that I definitely want to give back and give more to them. When I was young, I was always thinking that they loved my bro more, but now I think maybe they love me more. (It is a feeling that they care me so much. I think they love me in the appropriate amount as they love my bro. Just I can't measure love.) There wasn't a thing that they treated us differently because our difference in gender. Neither did they lower their expectation because I am a girl. They are the best parents ever! I don't think that taking care of my parents is only my bro's responsibility just because he is my bro, a man in my family. I don't have this, people may say, traditional Taiwanese thinking, because i was raised with the best love and the way of thinking. I am the person who I am and am not giving up because of anything. This is the way we love our love.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

miffy夢

今天早上又夢到miffy了
這次是在乾媽家 夢到乾媽有好亮的木頭地板
miffy 在乾媽家跟我玩 玩一玩突然衝去一個房間
我一看裡面有一隻好大的貓 兩隻...

然後她們就衝來咬miffy 我把她抱起來
後來我跟爸媽還有miffy在另一個木頭房間
那貓又狂衝進來...

我想我就醒來了~
可能是昨天電視看到侏羅紀公園...

Sunday, June 29, 2008

做我自己 其實不容易

小的時候
總是想像長大要做什麼
沒有邊際地
唯一的限制 只有自己的能力

後來 一步一步往前
幸運的成為那個
實現夢想的人

長更大以後
卻鬱悶地覺得
有些時候 身為女生真的很不公平
我要落淚了..

當誰 其實都很難阿

====
你永遠都有easy的選擇...
什麼是你想要的生活與未來呢? 是什麼?
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一朵佛心

台灣回美國的前一個晚上 此刻
心情卻是複雜而沈重
我想

人生的煩惱 也許從此正要上演

如果我有一顆佛心
那有多好 慈悲喜捨
有一顆佛心的我 會怎麼做呢

珍惜緣份 栽培福田
不貪不求 也許就不會有煩惱吧 :)

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想要簡單的人生 卻是越來越複雜了
源源不絕的挑戰呀...

Friday, May 30, 2008

get used to

arrived Taipei at 6:00 am this morning.
it was hot. the humid air was the main issue...
i couldn't stop complaining the weather

went outside and tried to get a bottle of body wash for Miffy at noon
it was extremely hot while i was walking on the street
i was burned and going to explode.. somehow..

However, after lunch, i am drinking a cafe au lait and it reminds me the days when i simply enjoyed sipping the ice coffee with the breeze from a fan..
it took me 7 hours to get used to what i had and what i didn't have (air con) : )

cheers, for anti global warming in super hot Taipei!
cheers, for miffy remembering me within one hour...

Sunday, May 04, 2008

taipei.tw

好久沒有回家了
好久沒有聽台灣的音樂了
今天終於像是學期結束之後
鬆了一口氣 找了很多歌來聽

看了一些mv想像地球另一面的陽光微風
一種很台灣的感覺
還有台北的擁擠
竟然有點緊張 ...

慢慢地覺得 simplified 世界
不是一件簡單的事情阿

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Same person

To you my friend,

I think I am still
the same person
since the end of last summer
in high school

I have been giving up love easily
because I feel bad or lose the ability to feel anything

This time I feel hurt
not only bad.

If bad you sad,
but if hurt you learn.

I don't know if this is a good thing
or not

==
To me my unique friend,

you think you can trust
and rely on someone
so you think he as a we
but you overestimated the we.

Then you come back to be you.
The unique you.

You won't lose yourself
even though you can literally lose
or give up any thing you don't want.

And this is probably the only thing
good
to know

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Sunday, March 30, 2008

miffy夢

夢見很久沒有回家了 miffy長成一隻大野貓
在園子裡跑 稀疏的蔬菜田中蓄勢待發 盯上一隻兔子
我開門去抱miffy 追逐了一陣子
終於抓住她了

進了房子裡 我開始跟她對話
她說她只是在外面練習抓兔子

不知道miffy 是不是也會夢到我
在夢裡跟我說話呢 XD

Health insurance

Yesterday, we watched a documentary, SiCKO, directed by Michael Moore. I started to worry about my family in CA and myself if we will stay in US for a long time. Health insurance in US is all about profits and they deny a lot of necessary medical cares for saving insurance companies' money. But Canadians, British, and French have medical care for free (from the taxpayers of course). It is a fun DVD because it also conveys the concepts behind different health insurance systems. Compared to US, Taiwanese really have a very good national health insurance plan as far as I know. : )

Sunday, February 24, 2008

no future no past

傍晚的時候 跟麗如看了一小段Rent
感覺很好 有一小段歌詞讓我有點感動..

Rent (finale B)

There is no future. There is no past.
Thank God this moment is not the last

There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret or life is yours to miss

No other road no other way
No day but today

Will I wake tomorrow from this nightmare

There's only now. There's only here.
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way

No day but today

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

dream log- tigers, panther, and cats

前天做了一個奇怪的夢
夢見家裡養了兩隻小老虎 一隻黑豹 跟貓

有天突然發現籠子裡的動物都不見了
我好緊張 跑到(漢中街三樓)裡面大房間一看
有一隻貓已經受傷倒在地上
我嚇到了 很難過的跑到旁邊發現不是miffy
我擔心地到處尋找miffy 發現牠躲在沙發下面
牠找到我以後就到處跟著我腳邊跑 (好像 will smith, i'm legend 電影...)
後來我把miffy放到籠子裡這樣牠就很安全了

我跑去跟媽咪說黑豹跑出來了 要趕快找 不然晚上的時候怎麼辦
她一點都不擔心....

(發現我的中文還滿像小學生的耶 :P)

Discovery

I had a new finding last night from shining :)

Everyday can be interesting even thought I just have a very little new discovery, which is ...

The IU webmail allows the users to "search" after clicking the small icon of magnifier.



I don't know if I should be glad to realize the search function from a friend or not after almost 3 years of using the website. It is a really poor design for users. :S

Sunday, February 10, 2008

外婆家 dream log

夢見一家人圍坐在從前外婆家那個客廳木頭的桌子旁邊
桌子下面有門可以開開關關 裡面總是擺很多過年玩的遊戲
大富翁 跳棋 象棋 西瓜棋 四色牌 撲克牌...
我抱著miffy 坐在椅子上跟家人聊天
miffy 的毛不知道為什麼被染成紅色的 (可能因為過年吧?)
她不乖乖給我抱 卻一直向弟弟招手...
=鼠年的第一個夢=

Friday, February 08, 2008

end the bad days

I got some bad moments in the past weeks and last year (lunar year).
But it's okay because I'm going to end these bad days.
I received the new Jack Johnson CD today. Love some of the songs.
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Some touching lyrics:

Hope

It will teach you
To love what you're afraid of
After it takes away
All you've learned to love
But you don't
Always
Have to hold your head
Higher than your heart

Enemy
I put hatred in a box then i locked it
The strongest one i made
I buried it all grew a tree without thorns
and sat beneath its shade

Losing keys (My favorite :))
I've been losing lots of keys lately
I don't know what that means but maybe
I'd be better off with things that can't be locked
at all

The world has its ways
To quiet us down
The world has its ways
To quiet us down
Down comes the rain
Down come our spirits again
But down comes the strength
To lift us up and then

Been going upwind now
For too long
Forget how
To let go
Seems too hard
Too late now
To turn around

The world has its ways
To quiet us down
The world has its ways
To quiet us down
Down comes the rain
Down go our spirits again
But down comes the strength
To lift us up and then

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

夜裡的一只玻璃缸

夜裡 街燈微微光芒 支撐著掛在窗台前的露水
玻璃裡的世界 就只有我一個人 及旋轉的花草傢具
你知道有時候 醒著的世界 比夢裡的還要支離破碎
鏡子裡閃爍靈動的 是我嚮往的永恆嗎
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也許 永恆的本質就是虛幻的 只存在那些"關係"裡 而非觸手能及的世界

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Attention!

I found this on a website. (no virus)

This site has your PIN number listed. Check it out, as I can promise you that yours is there. Time to panic.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

"A lot like love"

Watched a movie after dinner.
very sweet movie.
I miss the time when love was a lot like love...
and photography, of course.

Now, I have to get my ducks in a row...
(What kind of ducks..? diploma, career, nice car, house...:) )

p.s. another thing is that today i tried "livemocha" a website where you can learn, practice, and teach languages for free. interesting.

漁人

湖面中央 晶瑩剔透
妳是漁人 沈默著
垂下一縷細絲

透著冰雪散射光環 看見那
微微發顫的心與手 繫著
懸疑不定的冰冷渴望

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

New year lesson one

Life is patch-proofed.
A one way, not mend-able process.