夢見老師。

又一次夢見陳佩正老師。這次他已經康復回到學校教課。我感動的抱住他! 問他有沒有聽到我們錄給他的那些對話。他點頭說有。我不好意思的說，後來好一段時間沒有錄了。他的辦公室變得很現代化很新穎，（整棟樓都是新的，他好像還是穿著涼鞋）不變的是，我還是坐在他對面的椅子上，聽著他說最近教學上的創新跟發現，還帶著他給我的一堆資料回家研究，隔天要跟著老師的班上去陽明山戶外上課。

一切都好真實，尤其是那個等了好久，令人掉淚的擁抱。

屋漏偏逢連夜雨。

話說，我們住的公寓跟從前indiana的CV比起來真是十萬八千里。

浴室有個氣窗，每逢下雨或融雪就會漏水。上個月開始，水壓不足，洗澡洗一半會停水，或是馬桶沖水之後，洗手台就會沒有水。昨天開始，洗手台的水龍頭漏水，今天發現，洗手台下的櫃子大淹水。

更不用說，隔壁每天清晨五六點開始在木地板乒乒碰碰爆走狂跑（牆壁的這一邊不巧就是我們的床...），又時常哭天搶地的小女孩了。

雖然現在想起來CV也是偶爾有浴室洗手台的問題...。

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今天發現，原來travel medical insurance (幾乎所有北美的都是一樣) 沒有cover預產期九週內的旅行。我的Bloomington trip到底該怎麼辦???

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luckier than a lot of people

I'm pretty satisfied and happy for most of the times.
Really luckier than a lot of people.

Sometimes my energy drops. Not because I suddenly
hate my life or hate what I am doing --
It's like driving across Arizona.

Sometimes you would feel bored and lonely
when on a really long road without seeing any other cars pass by.
But, you would also be amazed by spectacular scenery of mountains or the river.
Those breathtaking moments take away all your painful feelings.

I am JUST impatient with my relatively slow speed and anxious
as comparing my progress with how fast Earth spins (or how fast a baby grows?)
I can't lie to you: I dreamed of flying, but then worried about missing all those funny-shaped cacti--they make me laugh.

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Final thoughts:
It's life. I need something to take away my exhaustion. Perhaps the postponed honeymoon would do it?

it wasn't/ isn't an easy ride

This song reminds me the most difficult time in recent years. Falling in love was easy but the rest wasn't an easy ride. 'We're always fighting what we're feeling...' I really appreciate the peaceful moments we are having.



Human. Lyrics.

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Can we get back to the point of this conversation,
when we saw things through each others eyes,
cause now all I see is ruin and devastation,
we all need some place we can hide inside and

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

I’m smart enough to know,
that life goes by,
and it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind,

if you feel I’m letting go,
just give me time,
I’ll come running to your side,

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind cause

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
After all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Any other reason
to stay instead of leavin’
after all, yeah

白日夢

慵懶的星期六
應該是因為半夢半醒的午睡...

我想起隔壁日前buzzer鈴聲大作的陌生鄰居
四五十歲太太 煩瑣忙碌的城市生活之外
鎖著個祕密
她租了這樣一間小公寓
在dundas鎮上
一租就是二十年

只有極少的時候
能夠過來坐在窗邊

望著 兩公尺外他斑駁木頭房屋
與撒了滿地的松針

是誰 慢慢拉長
午後金色光影
她依然
緊抓著那短暫耀眼的秋日尾巴

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以上，純屬虛構。