箱子

一直打噴嚏
大約是我在美國一年打的數量吧 (笑)

不知道是對箱子上的灰塵
還是對箱子裡揚起的陳年往事
一陣過敏

從小時候"高級"集郵簿裡的白雪公主 高中週記本 請假卡 家政食譜! 小黑貓鑰匙圈 上一支錶帶是皮帶的手錶 侯文詠的書 大學時代沒有寄出去的信 電腦(我自己的第一台)打的教案 手作卡片 一瓶不知道哪一片海岸的砂...

今天晚上很有效率地把這些年累積的箱子整理了一大半回收 也許是因為我更了解自己未來的方向 也許是我更珍惜身邊的人更能活在當下 (也許是我媽先偷幫我丟了很多東西?!)

現在, 2009年 christmas eve 前夕, miffy坐在我腿上呼嚕
我們依然在彼此身邊, 感受彼此的溫度 真的很幸福!

人生過了三分之一
從繁華台北的一個角落 走到落葉繽紛的小鎮
幸運的認識了很多知心的朋友
也歷經了些許給我們挑戰與不安的人

然後 有一天決定跟貼心的好朋友一起生活一輩子
就像是兩條平行線要變成螺旋捲曲的DNA
繞著彼此旋轉 不是緊緊貼在一起
而是搭起一段一段的橋

清晨的鬧鐘 早晨開車路上載送可口可樂的車
中午的玻璃便當 下午窗外樹葉沙沙聲音
傍晚開始毛躁的擔心未來(食物,健康,事業,家人...)
這樣過了一陣子 搭著那平行線的橋
有時候橋是粉紅色的快樂浪漫 有時候是黑色的怒吼

不一樣的步調 不一樣的方式
開始疑惑搭起來的橋 螺旋的那一端
是什麼 有一天
回頭看地時候是絢麗和煦的彩虹
還是黑色的枷鎖

我希望是
彩虹

今天有機會翻了一本從前買的書 "the power of flow"
有一段話說

"Life unfolds as a dynamic process. We begin to experience, in a practical way, the fluctuating, constantly changing nature of existence. We understand that everything has a timing and pacing of its own. Instead of struggling to get what we need, we relax into a situation. We follow our intuition and watch for feedback from life. We learn when to push and when to pull; when to speak and when to be silent; when to advance and when to retreat. We do our best in whatever we do, and we trust that what happens is supposed to happen. Then, free of impatience, guilt, and anxiety, we watch with pleasure as events unfold that are better than what we had conceived. One flowmater, a lawyer, says that when he is working toward a goal in his life, he always asks himself, "Am I pusing or am I not?" If he's pushing, he stops. While negotiating for a car, he cound have purchased one at a reasonable price, but when the situation started seeming full of effort and stress, he stopped the proceedings. Two weeks later, he made a single phone call and purchased the same car at a better price. (p.9) "

就像這樣 when to push, when to pull, and when to follow the flow. 好藝術唷 :)

夢到miffy 跟我們全家一起坐船去玩

下午睡了一下
做了一個可怕的夢 :(
夢見我們跟miffy一起去玩
miffy待在大遊輪的房間裡
我們出去一下下
回來miffy看著我大大的眼睛紅著眼框

我好生氣 miffy跟我說那個小姐(大概是眼睛會說話吧)拔牠肚子的毛好痛
我超生氣的 直接衝下去找那個小姐理論!!!X$%&@

夢到貓的解析:
http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/c2.htm

Moving backwards...

I am using a new HP mini now :)
Didn't know that I would come back to Windows one day.
I am just still in love with Apple Macbooks so much.

But most Apple laptops are heavy and expensive.
So don and I decided to give HP mini a try.
I like everything about my new small laptop. The price (299+tax), the system (XP,, seems faster than 7.0.. even though I imagined to play with snow leopard), the design (good keyboard!), and esp. the light weighted design (10 inches). Just wish it had a longer battery life. (3 hours for now)

I originally wanted to get a Toshiba for 9+ hours battery life after searching the Internet. However, I didn't like Toshiba 110's appearance plus we couldn't find it in stock in BestBuy, in Sam's Club, in Office Depot.... And we are not sure if Windows 7.0 is stable enough on these small laptops or not.

I've tried installing programs I often use when writing my dissertation proposal and other research projects. One thing I really hate about Windows is: When trying to edit a folder name, it always gives me a very loud and annoy and ugly "BEEP" and blames me on having another window with the files open. Not very smart program. Now I miss my Apple. :)

But wish me a good time with this small HP writing my dissertation proposal and dissertation in the library!

memory。

自從plurk之後，很久沒有blog了。

不熟悉超過140個字，難怪研究說plurk/twitter久了人會呆呆的。（思考是片段的）

下午睡午覺的時候，陽光透過窗簾灑在軟軟的棉被上，

躲在被子裡，閉上眼睛像是坐在光復樓的櫃子上

背著夏天的風與陽光，髮稍呼吸著記憶裡，

十七歲的青澀。

記憶不只影像。是有光線，溫度跟氣味的阿。