i can't feel myself. it's extremely difficult for me not seeing ian for such a long time (perhaps just 2 hours so far.) And my heart sinks when i find myself forget to say goodbye to ian. and he must be so confused and maybe sad if he already learns this expression because he doesn't know if we are coming back for him.
i am so nervous. anxious. we both cried when driving away from his nanny's. :(
